Systemise Ma Life

I'm Back

2009-06-05T04:42:00.000+08:00

I'm back! more to come from me.wohoooooooo!

2008-01-06T23:20:00.000+08:00

I wanna be motivated but I'm complacent.

I wanna learn but I have a short attention span.

I wanna be an entrepeneur but i'm not doing enough.

I wanna make her happy but i'm not showing a good example.

I wanna be structured but I tend to be contradictive.

I wanna be firm with my decisions........

2007-11-28T00:52:00.000+08:00

This video is the highlights from the World Silat Championship in Pahang,Malaysia by Team Singapore.

The competition has been an eye opener for me,met alot of interesting people that practice Sports/Silat from all over the world.

These are the countries that participated in the Championship

Asia:Australia,Brunei,Cambodia,India,Indonesia,Japan,

Malaysia,Myanmar,Nepal,The Philippines,Saudi Arabia,Singapore,Thailand

Europe: Austria,Azerbaijan,Belgium,France,

Germany,Netherlands,Spain,Switzerland,United Kingdom

Americas: Surinam, U.S.A

The participation in pencak silat is expanding and hopefully by next year more countries will participate in the 14th World Silat Championship.

2007-10-12T21:36:00.000+08:00

Eid Mubarak to all muslims all over the world!

In a week's time,I will be leaving to Kuantan,Malaysia to take part in the 13th World Silat Championship. I will be competing in the Class G category(75-80kg).

I've been preparing myself metally and physically for the upcoming championship as this is one of the biggest test in my life.It will portray whether I got the balls to fight through it all the way or I'll just be the coward who would spurn the oppoutunity of a lifetime.

2007-09-17T01:14:00.000+08:00

Staring at a blank space overcomes my soul that is tainted with the blood of the unknown sinless spirit which is cheated by the original sin.

Salvation through the son,more of the theory of the gentile who claims he saw the son of man rather than the practice of patriach Abraham.

Inhaling the greens would make one mind's deep but the ill effects made it illegal and why does a ciggarete be allowed when it is more harmful compared to a plant that it is so underrated?

Meeting you have made me a much better person,maybe I can be more deeper when I'm with you...........

2007-08-30T23:18:00.000+08:00

My First Modelling Shoot

I was recruited by Padi Bridal & Saloon which Wirdayanti Noor recommended me.

This is Kuriyati,the gal who was my modelling partner for the day. She looks familiar rite? Well she was a contestant on the Anugerah(Malay Singing Show)

My first ever so called 'emo' pose? Shit! Now I'm sure gonna castrate myself.kill me now!

It was a long day posing for photographs and it was an enriching experience.

Enjoy viewing the remaining pictures!

Well there's still one pic which I saved the best for last:

2007-08-28T21:31:00.000+08:00

What should I blog about?

Religon?

Politics?

My Life?

My Relationships?

If I write about religon or politics it would seem boring to people like my good friend: Jason Cornelius"I like phone sex with fat minahs" Pareira.

If I write about my life or my relationships,I would feel out of place as I dislike the idea of writing stuff about what other people usually write on their blogs.

I'm still contemplating on whether I should create another blog for entries regarding my daily life and the usual stuff.

Should I?

2007-08-22T23:36:00.000+08:00

I wonder who might she be?
A stranger who likes to pose for a pic wif me?
An avid photographer?
A person who likes to say 'crazy'?
A 'NAFA' student?

Can someone help me?

2007-08-13T23:19:00.000+08:00

Since i've met that person,stability reckons...............

The foundations in my life streghtened by an avid fine arts photographer.........

Attachment is not troublesome,it binds the missing pieces in one's soul.......

Application of the complete way of life(Abrahamic Submission) to the relationship is vital for stability

Thankful for meeting a person who is intelligent in her own ways
(moving images)

2007-07-31T22:07:00.000+08:00

What I have to do to prove to you I'm good enough for the fight?!

Style or Substance?

Tactical or Technical?

Speak Up or be a puppet?

Respect or Disrespect?

Too many questions,too little answers...............

TSP

2007-07-23T23:47:00.000+08:00

The TSP and Wirdayanti Noor surprised me at the airport with this Cookies&Cream birthday cake. My first ever birthday surprise! Wirdayanti Noor and the TSP people have been planning the surprise birthday thingy for weeks. Thanks people,I love you all!

2007-07-20T22:59:00.001+08:00

This is an article about the treatment of woman in Saudi Arabia. These are muslims who do not follow the laws of Islam. I'm ashamed as a muslim to know that this kinds of things happens in the holy land. Most of the arab-muslims are arrogant and backward indeed.

"What happens if a woman goes to court here [Saudi Arabia]?"
asked my father."What do you mean?" I counter-questioned.
"What I mean is that if a woman goes to court is she treated as an individual or are her rights based on her gender?"
"Depends on the case, I guess," I said."Come on," he interjected sarcastically. "Don't start telling me that women are treated in the manner that has been commanded by God. According to His Law they should be treated as equals. You know that that's not the case here."
"You just have to look around at the horrific miscarriages of justice to know that that's definitely not the case," he emphasized.
"My point is that as much as we try to find fault with the West, one thing is for sure: I would feel far more secure with their system of justice if I were a woman than I would with the one we have here."
"Yes, in a way you're right," I began, "but Islam did give women rights over 1,400 years ago that the so-called civilized world has only started to recognize recently."

"You're intelligent enough to know that having rights and not being entitled to them is just as good as not having them at all. In the Qur'an, when a man decides to divorce his wife, God Orders him to leave his wife on an equitable basis and is required to support her. Am I right?" he asked, quoting the verse and chapter.
"Of course," I agreed."So if we are really honest with ourselves, does the law here enforce that or even recognize it in part?""Not that I know of," I admitted."Alright.

This means that a woman can quite literally be booted out of her house on to the street with nowhere to go; and if she tries to extract any right or entitlement from her husband, will the court support her in this? Have you ever heard of a Saudi man who is scared of the consequences of not paying his wife alimony or stealing her dowry because he might be taken to court?"
"No," I conceded thinking of all the women I knew who had had this scenario forced upon them without any hope of recourse."Exactly," he said, having won the argument.

"It's disgusting to think that the courts can overlook the word of God when it comes to preserving and upholding the whole concept of male domination. Judges relish sentences that chastise women for petty matters. You see the way the outwardly pious love to stop women in the street to point out strands of hair that may have escaped their veils or question the identity of the men around them; but when it comes to guaranteeing them their God-given rights they miraculously disappear!"

"Yes," I said, reflecting upon what he said. "You're right.""A woman cannot even gain custody of her children in a court of law. What sort of a mandate gives the automatic guardianship of little girls over to the hands of a father and stepmother even when a mother is perfectly capable of looking after them? You of all people should know what that feels like. What's more, the status and importance of a mother in Islam is such that Prophet Muhammad (peace be upon him) himself said that paradise lies beneath the feet of one's mother and that a mother's value is three times greater than that of any other individual."

"Yes," I agreed.It was this very conversation that played in my head when I read two articles printed side by side in the paper this week. One of them highlighted the fact that there are many single mothers and divorcees in society who are denied welfare due to trivial bureaucratic matters and thus forced to live below the poverty line. Imagine that. In Saudi Arabia, one of the wealthiest countries in the world, women are reduced to begging on the streets because the law does not recognize their needs.

What kind of an interpretation of Islam is that when our faith is based on a spirit of egalitarianism? When verses upon verses of the Qur'an command us to look after the wretched of our society?As if that was not bad enough, the adjacent piece highlighted the obstacles that Saudi women married to foreigners have to endure. Whereas a Saudi man may obtain citizenship for his wife and his children, a Saudi woman is not entitled to the same privilege if she marries a non-Saudi.

Upon what spurious logic this decision is based upon I do not profess to know, but what I do know for sure is that it has nothing to do with religion.The great Islamic scholar of the 19th century, Muhammad Abdo wrote that when he visited the West he found Islam but no Muslims and upon his return to the Arab world he countenanced many Muslims but no Islam. I am beginning to see his point.

Half

2007-07-18T23:51:00.000+08:00

My life will never be the same again cause I met you....I need to make changes that will change my direction in life. Am I prepared?

Taking Back Sunday......

2007-07-08T13:58:00.000+08:00

Me leaving tomorrow for the SiJoRi Silat Championship held at The Karimun Islands,Indonesia. It's a silat competition where teams from Johor,Singapore and the Riau Islands compete against one another.

Before the British and Dutch colonization took place,the Singapore,Johor,Riau Islands were somewhat known as the Malay Riau region.Till today if one visit the three provinces,the lingua franca(language) is spoken in the same accent of the malay language. The culture shared among the people is also quite similiar and the Malay-muslim sultanate governed the three provinces before each three provinces were taken by two countries(Johor&Singapore(Malaysia),(Riau(Indonesia).

It will be interesting for me to compete with my fellow 'malay' competitiors and share the similiarites between us Riau malays. Even though genetically speaking,I'm not an ethnic malay(Javanese/Bengali),I've grown up in a malay-muslim society and I feel like one of them.

Wish me the very best of luck for the competition!

(The Horse Neighsssss off) Pendekar Kuda Jantan...................

Lethargic

2007-07-03T23:18:00.000+08:00

It seems that I'm so tired mentally these few days,am I suffering from burnout?
I've always been reminding myself of the passion of what i'm doing and just go through it without excuses......

Need or Want? Single or Attached? I have been asking myself questions for a long2 time whether I wanna change my life as singlehood have liberated me of commitments which one part of time ,I think it was a waste of time.

If I'm attached,could I focus on my passion? Could I still be free and do the things I love so much. Would the other half share my passion and would I share her's?

Go wif the flow? maybe I should.......my life will not gonna be the same again......

Simplicity

2007-07-01T23:45:00.000+08:00

You wont know what's life if the person yu least expect,would be your.........?

Not good enough

2007-06-25T23:01:00.000+08:00

I get knock down,but I get up again,no one is ever gonna kick me down.

I've been trying to show my master and myself that I deserve a place in the team but my efforts are still not good enough.

Am I wasting my efforts or are they indirectly pushing me to become a better warrior for my homeland?

Action speaks louder than words but I really need to show and prove to them that I will work very hard and smart.

I'll promise I will not let u down,i'm sincere and I'm even prepared to swallow my own ego....................

Random

2007-06-20T22:54:00.000+08:00

I mostly listen to Nu-Metal,hip-hop,etc but the Shane Ward's Single: No Promises is really a deep song as deep as Jason's Grandma's Cleavage.

What about the latest single Good Charlotte's Single:Keep Your Hands Of My GAL,( got brass knuckles hanging, From my neck and my chain, ) they're seriously like a punk rock band chanting gay anthems so that gays wont listen to maddona and will instead listen to them,the song tittle shoud be: Keep Your Hands Of My Boy.

I was queing to buy tickets to watch a movie when a long lost friend of mine tap my shoulder and asked:"hey Razif,long time no see,what are you doing here?
I replied:"I'm Tanning!"

Loving Simplicity.....

2007-06-19T12:47:00.000+08:00

I met a person whose simplicity amazed me and her humility made me fell warmth deeply.

What am I to do with myself as I've been wanting to rid of my complexity.

Her persona shook me to review my newself.

Meeting her make will make my life simple and loving it.

Maybe I've met that................

(If it happens,it happens)

Gibberish

2007-06-11T23:13:00.000+08:00

Song From NOFX: Leaving Jesusland

We call the heartland not very smartland, IQ's are very low but threat levels are highThey got a mandate, they don't want man-dates, they got so many hates and people to despise

In the Dust Bowl, cerebral black hole, the average weight is well over 200 pounds

I hate to generalize, but have you seen the thighs, most haven't seen their genitalia in a while
Maybe that's why they're so scared of us (Maybe that's why they're so pissed at us)
We have concerns other than fear and hunger pangs (They're all jealous we're having better sex)Queers, transgends, and lesbians, vegans and vegetarians
All you brownish red and yellow ones come and join us on the coast

No longer svelte, they gotta punch new holes in the bible belt
They've blown out the fire under the melting pot, the red blood of America is starting to clot
No compromise, no sight thru others' eyes, they're just flies spreading pieces of shit

You gotta emigrate, stop living in hate, what makes this country great is dwelling on either side
They don't want visitors in Jesusland They want life canned and bland in the fatherland
We want people with college degrees, drug use experience and STD's
People with open-minded philosophies, come hug California trees
Cultural revolution now, neo-conservatives run outta townWe're gonna burn Orange County down,And then we're off to Riverside, Bakersfield and Fresno too, then we're comin' after you

The fear stricken, born again Christian, They got a vision a homogenized state Textbook decline, Intelligent Design (Texas textbooks, Bibles, and prayer books,)They got Bill Nye on the list to execrate (They want them memorized, but don't want you to think)
They don't want visitors in Jesusland They want life canned and bland in the fatherlandPunk Rockers and emo kids, people doin' things the church forbidsBuddhists, agnostics, and atheists we're moving out of JesuslandArt students and thespians, - excluding country - all the musiciansWe want all hookers and comedians, nihilists are welcome too

No longer svelte, they gotta punch new holes in the Bible belt

This song hits at the narrowmindedness of the American people(Neo-Conservatives). It also a lesson for us not to Judge people and discriminate people who have different Ideologies. This entry is not designed to bore readers of my blog,I like to blog this kinda way and hope you guys respect the way I blog............

Goodness,Gracious me

2007-06-06T00:18:00.000+08:00

Its been a long time since my last entry so here it goes:

I've been too patient,too assertive and I think it's time to face reality that life is cruel and to my amasement,there are people out there who hates/dislike you by the way yu talk even though yu rarely talk to them.(Eight wonder of the world)

On a lighter note: You should check out one of my close friend's blog: thatbloodycritic.blogspot.com. His blog is very funny for retards who cant pee straight,that's y I love him so much.

The reason why i've been so nice to people who dislike me is because I believe that they misunderstood about me and I'm trying my best to rebuild frienship or one could say brotherhood but at times I would rather say to them why not they go **** a dog.seriously. hahah just joking,am I?

My friends have been commenting that my entries are rather somewhat boring,religous,prosaic,world-affairs etc.. So? They want me to write stuff like:
Today I went to work,then I picked my boss's nose,then I eat babi goreng for lunch,then I made out with my friend's granmother S&M style,then me hearing my mother's nagging that I could make hip-hop beats out of it. GOD please kill me now,that just aint me blogging about my daily routine/life. Once in a while,I will write about my life but for now I'll blog more about deep stuff/insights which is going through my mind....

Bit: I know this is hard time for yu,be strong cause all the JINZ & JINTINAZ r there for you no matter what.What does'nt kill you,will make you stronger.

Shakir: Keep Training harder cause I know yu'll replace him one day.

Jason: Mr.Pink Nipples is such a cute nickname.haha

The world is horse,i'm just galloping around and neighing to other spirits alike(random)

Fate

2007-05-28T22:00:00.000+08:00

FATE:We are made to believe that god decides our path in life and all the decisons we make are predestined. IF we really beleive in that theory,then what is the use of living. Whatever we decide are all already decided by god.('Pagan')

Dont get me wrong, I do believe in fate and destiny but my intrepetation is slightly different from the others who are content that thier fate in not in their control.

My Intrepetation: I believe that god sets the path for us AND he gave us the gift of freewill to decide the direction of the path he sets for us. I hate it when people blame their fate if something went wrong for them. Let us think and reflect: If god decides our fate,then why would he create the human race and let us become zombies with no power to decide the direction of our path?

I hope this entry would not offend anyone and the reason for me writing this entry is because i'm trying my best to be a concious muslim.

Dont follow a religon because yur ancestors are of that religon,follow a religon because you are the one who read(IQRA) the scriptures of the religon and believe that the religon is the complete way of life for yu.

Confusion(Single-minded)

2007-05-24T21:17:00.000+08:00

The reason why i have been single for a long time is due to my indecisiveness which i'm myself is confused about it. I've been enjoying my single life too much that I fear if get into a relationship and get commited, I would lose the freedom to do anything I desire.

At the same time, I do want to be in a relationship as I have everything in my life: stable family,great bunch of friends, involvement in sports,following a comprehensive way of life EXCEPT having an other-half to share my life with.

I've been at stage of my life where I could have easily been in a relationship but I analysed things in very great detail and decided that being single is the best thing to do.
I really need to loosen up and just go for the plunge,I'm really2 tired of thinking too much and it's time not to be different,it's time for commonality.

Emptiness....

2007-05-21T23:13:00.000+08:00

Emptiness is killing me,its saving me from society's ills,it gives me a new perspective,it defines vast remote spaces,it gives me an oppurtunity for placing additions in my system,the worst sentiments,loving-hating a person,empty vessels.

The Uniqueness of ONE.

2007-05-18T22:42:00.000+08:00

I did my friday prayers at Chulia Mosque in Chinatown. It's the first mosque to be built by indian-muslims traders(Chulia Brothers) In Singapore. This is my first time being in the mosque which sermons are conducted in the tamil dialect. I've always love the fact that in any mosque in this earth of ours,there's no segregation of colour. The muslim brotherhood is unique factor in islam which distinguishes itself from other religons. I'm maybe biased since i'm a muslim but in which religous place could you see different races/colour submitting/praying to the oneness of god?

Fickle-Minded love(Gender Issuies)

2007-05-14T23:00:00.000+08:00

The complexity of the female mind. They are sensitive creatures who make decisions with their heart rather than their head. Dont get me wrong,i'm a feminist and males have their shortcomings too. There are pros and cons among the female and male gender. Males tend to be chauvinistic and egoistic while females tend to be oversensitive and fickle. Generally,males could have sex with females without loving them whereas females would only do it with their love ones. Genetically designed or socially engineered? Very Subjective and alot of stereotypes................................

Soft.....

2007-05-10T00:44:00.000+08:00

Play fire with fire.......I doubt so as i've been trying my best to live the islamic way of life. Pride? People have the right to be proud about certain things but that does'nt mean they are arrogant. The people that judges other people would base their judgements on their perceptions about the characters and personalities of others. Some would understand and choose not to understand the context of the insights of people and would rather give judgements without really asking or knowing what the person really meant with his/her insights.

NO ONE IS GREATER THAN THE OTHER BUT HIS/HER DEEDS(TAQWA) TO THE ALMIGHTY GOD!

2007-05-09T23:06:00.000+08:00

My Happy People

Ethnicity

2007-05-08T23:04:00.000+08:00

Ethinicity,race,origin,culture,dialect,religon.

The above-mention words, shapes or identifies one's profile in society.
It plays a huge role in the perceptive minds of people: stereotyping,prejudicing,judgement,employment,standing,etc.

Ethinicity: My paternal grandfather who was a religous teacher came from the java islands. He married my javanese-singaporean paternal grandmother(which is his eigth wife). My maternal grandfather who was a businessman came from Sylhet,Bangladash. He married my bengali-singaporean grandmother.

When i tell people that i'm part javanese/part bengali,they would tend to think that my mum is a sikh. There is a difference between bengalis and punjabis: Punjabis are from the punjab region, north-west of india and bengalis are from the bengal region, east of india.

My parents are both born and bred in this country of ours and have been integrated in the malay-muslim community. Majority of muslims in Singapore are malays and mostly non-malay muslims have adopted malay as their dialect.

Identity: I see myself as Javanese/Sylhetii Bengali living in a malay-muslim community. I'm proud of my origins yet humble by the simple fact that no one is superior than the other but his/her deeds to god.

Wohoo New Blogskin

2007-05-03T23:39:00.000+08:00

Hey guys,i've got a new blogskin designed by my good friend, Azlina.

Personal: I woke up late at 1+ today and i'm usually late for work. The reason why I woke up late was due to me watching the champions league match between Man U and AC Milan which Man U played very badly. Work was routine and mundane.I believe my national service is just a way for me to really think and decide my career path and I've come up with choices of either becoming an air-steward,P.E teacher,insurance agent or a social science scholar.

I've been living a routine life since entering ns and this is how it goes:Weekdays:0800 to 1700(NS),1800-2000(Silat National training).Saturday:1100-1300(tutor),1300-2359(family/free time)
Sunday:0900-1200(soccer),1500-1800(Silat Club Training),1930-2200(Skateboarding).

That's all for today,do checkout for my next entry as i'm gonna write about my ethnicity and my identity in this country of ours.

My first blog

2007-05-01T02:34:00.000+08:00

wohoooo! this is my first entry and i'm so excited! wohoo.